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Any Thoughts of Hurting Yourself?

A question of concern                                                              Words that spew out from the masses
From those that will yearn                                            Never once seeing the thoughts full of caskets
Hoping one day that they'll never learn                                             Visions of pain, infliction, and acids
Early sight bemoaned to a casket or urn                                Forevermore fearing being buried in ashes
Those memories are dear, deserving of more                                         To sit and to fight day after day
Not to be remembered as a life of before                                   Contender from birth, an eternal melee
The smiles past given; selfless and pure                              The courage and strength allowing the stay
Wisdom last spoken, a genuine mentor                             Quivers and shakes from too long in the fray
Moments past shared - one of splendor                              …

Once and for All

Each new day brings a sun that's rising
 My mind isn't compromising
  It's comprising of thoughts not confiding in shots
   Connecting no dots and idolizing dreadnoughts
    Asking me always my thoughts on what a beautiful suicide means.

      How do we act, how do we fall,
      What's the best way to answer when Death gives us that call
       I've seen how I die in most ways, not all
        I thank my will my veins aren't drowning in ethanol
        Though I can recall years against the wall
         hitting a bottle of alcohol, like some repeat protocol
          Just tryna end it all. That fate is one I must erase
           Once and for all.

           Why do I fight? I'm still asking to this day.
             Maybe I'm not meant to go out this way.
              I've been robbed of death or given a chance
              To breathe a good breath before my last dance

                Residing in me I wish were the answers
                 To all…